sad babushka doll..

sometimes, we could be so out of our elements that we thread and go over the day with a rather mediocre existence... we live in that realization,, but there's no stopping now,, the only way to reach tomorrow is to go on living today..
sometimes, one just want to hide and walk in anonymity like that 1960's Babushka Lady...gone, lost in the crowd forever...

----how to sleep at work...

---where can i purchase these???? i need it badly,,, huhuhuhuhu..

...back in '04

- i was sorting out my files and trying to re-organize them and delete old and useless files.. Haha, i had loads of useless files in my pc.. From monthly horoscopes, to episode guides of Meteor Garden, to insect pictures and what not... Damn! i realized that the oldest digital pics i had are still there... Back in 2004, we were still using this Huge Sony Mavica digicam ; it is so obsolete that it doesn't have memory chip but instead, it uses floppy disk. wahhh, so~so huge! Anyway, you can't expect a great photo from it, but it is the nearest thing we could to digital stuff back then...
Looking at my pics, i was really goofy then... maybe bec. i was still the youngest in the office...
wahhhhhhhhhh, i miss 2004. It maybe the saddest year in my life but it is has its happy times....
But no rewind please....




--back in 2004
> i weigh over 100 lbs.
> i had bangs..hehehe.. worst thing i did
> i had V-sign in almost all my pics
> i still love being in a picture... wehhh
> i still have my old-timer friends/officemates
> officemates are still thin... hahaha.. peace yo!
> as seen in the pic.. whole-bodied lechon don't disgust me yet...

Loving in simplicity....

Loving in simplicity is the best kind of feeling there is. When you are loved in your simplest self and seen in the most unassuming circumstances, it flatters your heart to be accepted just like that. When you speak of your unfiltered thoughts and feelings and yet you are still heard and never judged, it makes you feel valued.

Loving in simplicity is giving the things your best self could offer. Knowing that your effort is well appreciated, it makes you give more and more, until you discover you are indeed a wealthy person who has a lot to offer. It make you see your self in a greater light.. It is also about expecting simply.

Loving in simplicity is knowing TRUST , believing in it and living in it.. It is not about pulling and keeping each other close , not about possessiveness. It is about comfort and peaceful feeling of having to hold that one soul, no matter the physical absence of one. It’s knowing where to rest..

Loving in simplicity is knowing that silence, dull moments and bad situations are part of each other’s lives. One cannot be pleasing and loving and fun all the time. IT is about respecting those moments and waiting for your turn and never be demanding. It is acknowledging that your partner is an imperfect human being who can be moody, groggy, sick, tired ….

Loving in simplicity is nurturing each other’s relationship may it be families, friends, colleague, team mates. IT is about being happy seeing your love one enjoying in the company of other people other than you. It is about supporting him/her and never competing It is about letting him/her be.

I am thankful to have one simple Love…Thanks Kevin...

Hazed

....your heart is pulled from your body
and your soul is holding it in two ends
pulling it in , pulling it out...
until you burst in raptured confusion...

living....

whenever we give ourselves to whatever presents itself instead of grasping and holding it,
we flow with it. We do not arrest the flow of reality, we do not try to posses, we do not try to hold back, but we let go, and everything is alive as long as we let it go. When we cut the flower it is no longer alive; when we take water out of the river it is just a bucketful of water, not the flowing river; when we take air and put it in a balloon it is no longer the wind.

Sinulog Fireworks...

kevin's desperate attempt to capture the pyroworks...hahahaha
samokan man gud ang director sige panghapak sa luyo mao ingon ani ang gawas!!!
anyway i enjoyed it very much...

glass castle...

trust is like a castle made of fine goblets
a simple gust of wind could tumble it
>> as easy as that,
the castle can turn into just broken glasses....

UP Lives on....

-hundred years of excellence and intellectual passion. UP nestled the country's great minds for years and years..And forever it will be an institution of freedom and liberation...
I'm a proud UPian!! Happy 100 years!!

wanting to make sense of these feelings...

Deceit

Feels like that drizzle in a hot day
When you say things and make it seem so true
And you look at me with straight gaze
That drop of rain feels like fever in the making..

Pain

That sudden touch of flaming iron on my lap!
Sends my reflexes to crazy spin
Oh how awful even to move..
Worst part is waiting for the sore to heal…..

Loneliness

When I look out , i saw only the hazy white horizon..
Wishing to see that black smog
Well, bring my thoughts far from me
where it’s not just me and this rather cold day…

Longing

All’s in my imagination….
Your voice is heard banging me throughout
Your face, all I see in the people around me…
Crazy!! How I want to own your everything…