christmas in july

wow! today, it feels like Christmas! when i went out this morning for work, i just had a nice christmassy feelings , must be something about the air this morning, send a nice scent of December..
the wind had a crisp and cool taste , it slap my cheek with yummy

i love it.. i love how Christmas makes us all feel wonderful. i love it how Christmas makes us all
generous and forgiving.

i'm sick

damn!!i'm down with fever and cough.. and i had the worst hiccups marathon that left my side aching ... huhuhuhu.. it's as if am doing a non-stop 10k walking with matching belly jerk.. worst weekend.

i must be well by tomorrow, 'coz it's not my turn to get sick yet. hehehe... a friend texted me the other night and told me that almost everyone in their department has the same sickness with mine. Flu is a fad!
but anyway, i should be well, but i am not yet..i'm just touched with other people's concern over my little fever..thank you, thank you,, but i can take care of my self now. i'm no longer that helpless waif, i was before. BOW!

message to my self

i had been sad the past few days.. a sadness that is contained within. for some reason, it needs to be solved ASAP. i had the urgency to plunged into some kind of solution.. you know , mama needs an operation- a hip replacement surgery. I tried to be positive about it by thinking of many many ways how to raise funds for the operation. My siblings and father are also pulling all resources..

i am sad because i am faced with many unfortunate instances that i can't seemed to handle.. on my own , i tried hard to rationalize everything and refrain from being emotional. i told myself, sulking or crying won't save any of those problems.
i told my self to work hard and be resourceful in any way.. i feel that shame isn't even part of the equation.. hmmm, whatever it is i will use the full potential of my guts and intellect.

at work, i am bombarded everyday with problems not my own... sometimes, i give my own money for workers i barely know. at least a few problems are solved in a day. but when i think about my own problem.. pweeeehhhhhhhh..but come storm and hale, mama will have her health back...

I can do it!!

i will remember this day... i have no right to be lazy and coward... damn me wasting my time!!