i want to be.. hmmm just a want..

lately, i have been so out of tuned. nahhh, i really really want to break free from all that's binding me. i want to resign from work, i want to be without responsibility. I want to be only accountable to my self and God. I don't want to explain if i made a blunder. if i'd fall on the pit, then that's fine.. who cares?
but reality is not like that. everyday, i need to wake up early even if i want to damn sleep the entire day! if i want to stay up really late, i just can't do it!!!.. this picture is so wrong. i am no longer i control of my own life..
i want to be a vagabond , a drifter, a hobo... huhuhhuu. but am so tied up.
i used to tell people to let go of whats keeping you unhappy, but guess i'm not doing that mantra. i am enduring it and i'm getting tired again and again. i'm no longer free.. huhuhu --''(*.*)''-- makes me wanna cry...
i just felt that the older i get, the less brave i've become... how's that? i've reached an almost peak of my career but i'm not as bold as i was when i was starting.. did i lost my zest? i don't know. Those who knew me 5 years ago would really wonder how'd i change ..i used to be a dare-devil, i can exist in the shadow,i can thrive the limelight too..

my promise to myself is this.. starting May, i will revive my ways to what used to be.. i will be a free wind again...and it's getting me excited..

LIFE RULE

LEARN THE RULES SO YOU KNOW HOW TO BREAK THEM PROPERLY..

it's hot

it's damn hot this time of the year.. i guess the worst summer heat ever..wohuhuhu. right after my bath, i sweat.. when i'm out, i sweat.the only time i don't sweat was when i was soaked on the beach.. duhhh, care for a corny joke?..
it's very important to get hydrated regularly, take a bath at least twice a day. stay out of the sun if you can and most importantly keep your hot head under wraps.. huhuhu...incidence of heatstroke peak by mile at this time, so better be careful. migraines should be dealt with too..it strikes frequently now.
hmmmm, i start to sound like an expert health professional.. hhahahah, well i am a migraine expert.. i had that once in awhile.

this summer, i had my hair cut..it's giving me a little breeze.. goodness!

kevin is off to sulu..

today, my beau is off to Sulu for work. Hmm, am not really agreeable. That kevin guy is stubborn just like me!!! but a man's got to do what he's got to do. So be it! He's just got to be careful and not separate from his crowd. I have vague picture,or maybe an unwarranted perception of that place. Sorry folks, but i think it is not a safe place to stroll.. Damn me! am i wrong? maybe. But who cares?

so he'll be in Sulu-Zambo combo for 20 days or less.. when he comes back,, i'll treat him for a 2 hour thewi massage, double cheesebuger, double large coke and tyt2x hug!!
and all these valid til April 20 only, beyond that.. sorry kevs.. better luck next time.. next offer will be when you go to spratlys..hahahha

in the meantime, ninya, will be spending the holy week with siblings and maybe invite some friends over for the annual Seventh heaven marathon.. Ninya, will be as low key as possible , so that guy over there in Sulu won't have to worry anymore. ok? so i'll be a good girl.. hmmmm..no, i will be a real good girl the entire april.

ingat manong! i'll miss yah!

stress points

my mind is diverse

my heart, frail

my likes change in a heartbeatt

it wobbles like lego pile.

my time could stop

my passion could wane...

like flowers, they wilt in the heat...

well, they wilt too in the cold.

if i will it, then it will be

my life, is mine...

my future, is mine too..

though my fate, unknown..