unthoughtful!!

2 monthsarries passed by, 25th & 28th and someone never bothered to remember.. SAD!!!! could have been the 35th and 11th mo....
never mind!

i love my baby

my baby kicked alot last night.. it is the very first time that i felt baby moving and maybe doing somersaults inside my tummy.. it is a happy feeling.. you get to interact with the little baby .. you touch , the baby kicks.. what a joy it is.
soon, when the baby comes out.. i will be a superhero mama.. i will protect and take care of my baby. I will be proud of him/her even with the littlest accomplishment he/she makes. I will make sure baby grows up to be a happy kid, full of smiles and with a happy heart, of course baby will also be very smart. No one would dare bully baby because i will flash them with my killer eyes!! If baby is a boy, hmmm maybe i will enroll him in a taekwondo school and also if he wants to, he can learn the saxophone. If baby is a girl, i will bring her to dance classes, maybe ballet or some dance sports.. of course, she will be a cool chick soon, so i will tell her to learn a musical instrument or two.
But most of all, baby will enjoy his/her childhood.. Baby will learn to walk in the grass at our yard.. he/she will be playing with the neighbors.. and it doesn't matter if she/he gets wounded.. that's normal. Baby will ride a bike and play crayons...
hayyy, mama is very excited.. I love you baby!!!
"God, take care of baby. keep baby strong and health, pretty/handsome and cute. I pray everything would be normal."

Reality Bites

In a relationship, it is easy to fade behind each other's life.. sometimes, you get too close that both persons tend to become one.. that's not bad, it's just that sometimes one or both think too easy on the other just because they think what they can do to their self, they can do to others too.. WRONG.

People in a relationship, should never forget who his / her partner was. What he/she is capable of? Can my wife or husband live without me? Of course they can! You were not born on the same navel so there's practically no reason why one can die without the other. Going back, what i'm trying to say is that no matter how you think you know your partner just because you live with him/her, you heard and smell how terrible she could fart or how scared she could get with lightning...you have no idea of the strenght of her/his mind..

Indeed, you will never know a person.. So never underestimate him /her. Never do things that you don't want yourself. Never take take things likely coz you might wake up one day on a daze. If you know you did something unpleasing, don't bother ask. You did it, you  know it! You idiot!

so i lit a fire, isn't it good, norwegian wood...

I had a bad night and probably will have a bad day.. but the mind does shift focus and before you know it you have better things to think of .. until i heard the song that i least need at this time... Norwegian Wood>> the nostalgic Beattle song.. wahhhhhhhhhh..

i haven't heard this song for years, maybe 2 years.. and the last time i listen to it obsessively was during the time when i was aimlessly trying on things out of whim. That was a happy-sad time. And i am happy-sad now. But now is different from before when " the bird can flew"

lanzones overload..i wanttttttttttt

i want to eat lanzones right now.. lots of them!! i think i could consume a tree-full of these sweet fruits!

On Pregnancy

2 days before our Singapore trip, i discovered, actually, i kind of predicted that i am pregnant. So i tested for pregnancy and tadahhhh!!!I AM PREGGERS! I cannot describe the happy feeling, it's like walking on the street and stepping into a bundle of thousands..Of course, husband is ecstatic. So i opted to stay here and let husband flew alone to Singapore to attend the summit.

Now, im almost on my 14th week. I'm a happy expectant.. Everyday is like an adventure and amazingly, you don't sort of get lonely because you always feel you have a little companion that you can talk to everyday. You always imagine how the tiny baby is working on making his/her hands, feet, teeth, etc. It's a cute thought and you take care of your self because you wanted to help the baby become a beautiful child when it comes out.

I don't have a very difficult pregnancy, no vomitting,no cravings. But everyday, i had lower back pains, especially on my butt-bones.. huhuhhu..Omega painkiller is very helpful!! yay! Now, i also have some hearing problems that goes on and off.. Pimple and zits are raging... But despite that, I can ignore all those for my baby.

One thing funny about me is that i am sort of superstitious.. Hahaha.. weeks after i know i am pregnant,, i started researching for amulets, which husband thinks as something funny and absurd. One of my colleagues at work brought "pangyawan" vine.. This is supposed to ward off evil spirits, even aswang. He said that "sharp bagakay" should be placed on my windows.. I started wearing black at night and even wearing my husbands used shirts.. Hahahaha...It's so funny thanks God Kevin is tolerating all these crazy antics..

Over-all, i am quite excited. I am looking forward to seeing my self very pregnant and heavy. I will be wearing cute maternity dresses and short skirts. I luv!!

For the meantime, take care baby! Do a good job in my tummy okay? Mama and Papa love you very much!!

damn

were so broke.. feel like a beggar..damn!!!!

i am maldita

i get bored sometimes with the slow pace and the steady pressure.. it made me feel like pulling the time to go so fast in a rewind setting.back to at least 5 years ago when i am _ _ _ _!!
damn those people pulling me down, pulling me sidewards and stretching me up!!! You have NO RIGHT , even the slightest to make my life less happy!
you should know better, i can detached myself and stay that way until i like it...

as a matter of fact..

out of sight, out of mind.....

who says being alone can't be fun????hehhehe

if i am by myself.. this i could do:

* drama marathon for 2 days without sleep
* sleep for 2 days non-stop
* walk around fuente-capitol-ayala route for the entire afternoon
* eat spicy tuna toppings for 1 week
* go to flea shops for the entire day...
* delete all unnecessary emails from all my accounts
* turn-off my phone
* make custom-made cards for all my childhood friends
* explore Colon street and bring my camera
* jog at Abellana circle every afternoon
* watch all cheesy Tagalog movies at home or at a friend's house
* finally have time for my article-writing job which i ditched.. hehehhehe
* learn another language!!
* go out for a walk every early morning
* enroll to short-term courses
* power diet
* go to dance classes, or karate class...
* paint my room psychedelic colors ...hehehe

discernment

discernment...

sometimes, there comes a time in your life where you need to stop and reflect on what path you wish to continue and which path you need to let go.

i have been working in the HR field for 8 years already. and needless to say, i was able reach my peak at an early age. i became HR Manager at 26...and now, i am burnt out and i want to switch path imediately.
i wanted to work in a creative field where my mind will be filled with artsy ideas.. i also wanted to pursue food business. knowing my personality, i wanted to be hands-on and doing the dirty job rather than delegating, so i really need to give 100% of my time and effort which will never happen if i am still working an 8-4 job.
huhuuhuh.. am so confused.. how will i tell my boss that i wanted to quit? how will i explain my resignation to my staff ?
God, what will i do? please help me...

gk fellowship

we were invited by kevin's gk-leyte family for their fellowship. we had a blast! great people, great food and great beach.. i had fun sleeping on the sand under a starry night... hehehhe..

grad pic?

my youngest brother mon is finally graduating from college...i envy my siblings coz i'm the only one with no grad picture.. now i have one..hehehehe,taken by my husband

bohol trip

ninitz, kebboy, turax, mil, kiki & jimmy

look at that face!!!hahahaha

caballero-sesaldo nuptial

kebin & ninya

ceremony: st. jude thaddeus church
camp lapu-lapu cebu city
reception: chateau de busay

the wedding preparation

the dress up







bride's entourage


maid of honor (eirene)/ Parents


getting ready....




the wedding ceremony