i had been sad the past few days.. a sadness that is contained within. for some reason, it needs to be solved ASAP. i had the urgency to plunged into some kind of solution.. you know , mama needs an operation- a hip replacement surgery. I tried to be positive about it by thinking of many many ways how to raise funds for the operation. My siblings and father are also pulling all resources..
i am sad because i am faced with many unfortunate instances that i can't seemed to handle.. on my own , i tried hard to rationalize everything and refrain from being emotional. i told myself, sulking or crying won't save any of those problems.
i told my self to work hard and be resourceful in any way.. i feel that shame isn't even part of the equation.. hmmm, whatever it is i will use the full potential of my guts and intellect.
at work, i am bombarded everyday with problems not my own... sometimes, i give my own money for workers i barely know. at least a few problems are solved in a day. but when i think about my own problem.. pweeeehhhhhhhh..but come storm and hale, mama will have her health back...
I can do it!!
i will remember this day... i have no right to be lazy and coward... damn me wasting my time!!
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